Ellie apparently asked Tobias to find Kippen at the inn to let him know that we were leaving. He found Kippen in Ellie's bed, sleeping. This kind of irked me at the time...I mean, I know he likes her and all, but still...did he have to be so blunt about it?
We rode during the night, and around dawn Tobias told me that he saw a person lying on the side of the road. I told Erissa, and we closed in on the person. Turns out that it was a Sister of Mercy, and she was barely alive. She had a very bad head injury. I immediately went to her side and prayed for the Mother's help in healing her...but something strange happened. I felt like there was something intervening, some other force or power. It pretty much pushed me out of the way, and I fell to the ground. Callie (the Sister) woke up immediately. I had a horrible headache, and I ended up throwing up as well. It was just so weird...I think Eraia had something to do with it, since that's the goddess that the Sister worships. Maybe she didn't like me calling on another deity for help with one of her Sisters? Either way...Callie helped me feel a little better, as did the rest of the group. Except Erissa...I don't know, it seemed like she didn't really care too much. And she was really skeptical about Callie. I know that Callie is a good person...I can tell. It really annoyed me that Erissa treated her badly, especially after what she had been through.
Anyway...I managed to get back on my horse and we continued on our journey. Apparently, some guys in armor came and took the Ryus from Callie. We're trying to find them still. I'm beginning to wonder if it's worth the trouble...but yes, it is. He is a Panther cub, after all.
So then we stopped to sleep, and this is where it gets interesting. I was still kind of mad at Kippen, but he did help me feel better when I was sick, so it was hard to be mad at him. I mean, I really didn't have a reason to be mad at him. He and Ellie like each other, and I should accept that.
Ellie and I had the first watch. She was teaching me to read for a bit...that was really nice of her. I learned some words. It's difficult, but not as impossible as I had thought. I'm really grateful that she's willing to help me learn.
So then we got to talking about Kippen...I explained to her that it's really obvious that he likes her. She didn't believe me at first but I think I convinced her. I admitted to her that I liked him too...but I came to the realization, while I was talking to her, that it was not fair of me to like him. They really are perfect for each other, and it's wrong of me to mess that up. So, I took off the ring he gave me. I asked Ellie if she wanted it, but she didn't. I considered just throwing it away...but Ellie said it was a sign of friendship. Yes, Kiippen is still my friend...and I guess he did do it as a sign of friendship, and nothing more. So, I just put the ring in my clothes. I figure I'll keep it, but I won't wear it.
Then we got to talking about other things...I ended up telling Ellie that Kippen was sleeping in her bed at the inn, and she couldn't figure out why he would do that. I eventually got to explain to her what boys think about...she apparently didn't know any of this. I was afraid that I made her scared of Kippen, of me, or of both of us...but I think she's okay. It was kind of a shock for her. Maybe I take it for granted that boys think about these things, and so I just assumed she knew. I'm not sure why I know and she doesn't. It's either my difficult childhood or her sheltered one...or both, I guess.
It was difficult to explain things to her, because it brought back some painful memories. However, it was a good thing for me to do, for both of us, and Kippen as well. I think she'll understand him more now, even if he doesn't understand himself. And, for some reason, I enjoyed telling her about these things. I'm not sure why, really. Maybe I felt obligated, since she was teaching me to read. Either way, I think it helped our friendship. She's always been nice to me, and I hope to keep it that way. I asked her if she ever has the same...thoughts...that Kippen most likely has. She said no, she never thought about it. But, I'm thinking that she might now. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not...I think it is, though. It'll prepare her for what's bound to lie ahead. She can't stay a kid forever. I wasn't prepared, I didn't know...and I hated it. So I guess maybe I'm trying to prepare her so the same thing doesn't happen to her. If she knows, maybe she can stop it.
I'm really happy for her and Kippen. I'm going to let them be happy. They deserve it. I just hope that Ellie tells him her feelings soon...it'll make things a lot less awkward for them both.
After our talk, I woke up Amara and Ellie woke up Kippen. Nothing really happened, but Kippen was deep in sleep, and dreaming. Who knows what he was dreaming about...well, I think I do. Because, well, that's how boys are.